Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
Today I am breaking it. I am not going dwell in the past. Today has been healthy eating all the way. So I am happy.
I haven’t admitted it to many people but I have been eating vegetarian for about a month. It has been great. Of course the few people who do know, of course ask, “what about protein?”. “I have to have protein”, they all say. Well I am proud to report. I eat too much protein. I have been checking in with the U.S.D.A “my pyramid” website. Every day for the last two weeks I am way over. So there.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Before the peace, I was walking around with this “wanting” feeling inside. But, I couldn’t figure out what I was wanting. Did I need to buy something? I knew this wasn’t the answer, but none the less I pondered long and hard about what I could buy. Nothing ever came to mind. Maybe I just need to find another book or spiritual podcast. I had spent almost a year I would say listening and reading the inspirational guru Wayne Dyer. Did I need more? Maybe I needed to read a “New Earth” again, spend some time with some mindfulness exercises.
Then it occurred to me. I need to live it. I need live mindfulness not just read it. I need to live peace not just listen about it. So at least I have a plan.
Part of it is to get into a daily yoga practice. It always makes me feel peaceful and content. So I need to plan to get up earlier in the morning. Waking up early has always been one of my challenges.
Another part of the plan came about because of some health issues. The issues forced me to watch what I eat. You know more veggies less sugar. Now I feel great. I have an apple everyday and even the recommended number of vegetable servings. I have been mindful of my eating habits. I enjoy my food and concentrate on the nutrition of each. It is working out beautifully. And in taking care of myself I have lost some of that wanting.
Below is one of my favorite poems.
"Wild Geese" by Mary Oliver
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
It is small by most peoples’ standards, but I have always been one for cubbie hole living. I lived in one room with my roommate Lindsey while in college, then moved into a small apartment with my ex-husband (600 sq). And now once again I live in one room with a roommate, my son. Let me tell you 3 yr boys don’t make the best roomies. No respect for privacy. ;-)
It will be glorious to have a kitchen, bathroom and my own room. The place is 2 beds and one bath and the total sq. feet equal 1,220. Sounds like a mansion to me. It even has a small back yard. That was really my only requirement. It is new construction so right now the move in date is Feb 28.
Susan and Aidan
While I am talking about roommates. I wanted to post a picture of my current roommate, Susan. She has been so wonderful. As I was breaking up with my ex-husband and wasn’t sure where I was going to live she graciously took Aidan and I in. Rent in Williamsburg in not cheap. During that time I didn’t have much money to live on and I don’t know what I would have done without her.
Also I miss my old roommate Lindsey. Love you Girl.
Monday, September 8, 2008
What is stillness? - The inner space or awareness in which the words on this page are being perceived and become thoughts.
Without that awareness there would be no perception, no thoughts, no world.
You are that awareness disguised as a person.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
It wasn’t a relaxing Labor Day weekend, but Aidan and I had a great time. This was my first time to Myrtle Beach. I didn’t see anything out of the ordinary for S.C., of course a couple of palm trees here and there. We went to the beach two days and Aidan actually went into the ocean! The surf was pretty rough because of Huricane Gustof so after a couple of times of getting salt water in his eyes he stayed on the beach.
We also drove go-carts and went to the aquarium and Aligator Adventure.
The most relaxing part of the trip was the train ride home. We got on in Florence, SC and rode until Richmond, VA. I love taking the train, especially with a toddler. I don’t know if I will ever drive long distance again.
This DVD player is a godsend. I actually got to set back, relax and listen to my ipod. I even closed my eyes! Yeah I look tired and in desperate need of a hair cut. Which thankfully I am getting today.
I am happy to get back into the groove of things. Work, daycare, work, some fun, back to work and dropping and picking up Aidan from daycare.